Friday, August 25, 2023

social media break

I turned 45 this year, and I've been online, daily, since age 12. Prodigy, AIM, chat rooms, message boards, blogs, social media, I've done it all. Constant connection has become an involuntary habit, like breathing. I can't even think solitary thought without framing it as a social media post in my head, a la Carrie Bradshaw. 

I've done a lot of work on myself the past couple years to get away from angry, aggressive, argumentative social media. It's my own problem to work on, but I also used to surround myself with people who validated that behavior and egged me on. I've been better lately, but still have some lapses into dumbassery, and this days people are just dangerously vindictive. People are incapable of turning off comments and stepping back until they cool off (and many social media services make that difficult, if not impossible). It's just ugly, and I need a break from it.

My struggle with social media has always been the endless scrolling. My brain thinks I can't be done until I've seen every post by every acquaintance, otherwise someone will be mad at me for missing something. On top of that, there are all these social media experts constantly telling you that you need daily content if you're self employed. I just simply cannot anymore. It's too much. It's really to the point where if I have to continue to maintain daily social media presence or my business will tank, I'll let my business tank. I'll just be a crazy crocheting cat lady and let Francis handle the outside world.

I thought this last trip would stave off burnout, but honestly it made it worse. This trip was so relaxing, and just highlighted how much people are driving themselves bonkers with all the tip groups and influencers making them feel like no matter how much content they consume, the BEST THING is still around the corner and they haven't found it yet and probably will come home and find out they missed it. I hate that for people who just want to create memories. 

 I love my job, I love booking theme parks and bucket list travel, but I hate the constant feeling of "needing to stay in front of people". I need to trust you all won't forget me if I take a break from being "terminally online" all day. Text and email is always open! 💜

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social media break

I turned 45 this year, and I've been online, daily, since age 12. Prodigy, AIM, chat rooms, message boards, blogs, social media, I'v...